For most people who follow this blog, I am someone who creates sexy drawings, and has the fortune to call several beautiful models, dancers, and porn-stars my "friends" thru various social media outlets. Often I am told how lucky I am, and sometimes people ask me to "introduce" them to some of my model friends. I luckily have half a brain and say "no" to that idea as a general rule. I know that sometimes you just have to make the effort to talk to a beautiful woman, even if it is thru FB-Messenger. Believe it or not, when I first started to draw, waaaaaaaay back in the early 90's, I was an extremely socially-awkward guy (and a lot of times, i still am quite socially awkward) and even the idea of talking to a girl would make me blush so much that people thought i might pass out. I had absolutely no self-confidence and severe shy-ness, especially if i was encountering someone i had a crush on, or i didn't know. Because of this intense shyness I spent a lot of time in my room, with sketch books that i would fill with my fantasy girls, or superheros. I honestly didn't think much of my "talent", i just drew what I enjoyed, and luckily, some of my geeky friends enjoyed what I created. In High School i started finding that my art started opening doors up for me, especially in terms of friendship, people that i would have never had the guts to talk to in Junior High, were suddenly coming to me, wanting to talk to me about my art,
As I became an adult I kept creating my art, posting it on some photo/art-sharing sites, and encountered similar-minded friends, although at the time I posted a lot of the art under a different name. My shyness and low self-confidence was still rearing its ugly head in my life. I was often scared that people only wanted to be my friends because they only wanted a drawing, or if they knew the "real" Kyle, the person under the pen-name, they would just think i was a freak.
The thing is, i didn't need to worry about it. Because of finally having the bravery to actually stand up for myself, and talk and interact with people i've met online, i have found some truly wonderful friends. My art is honestly the reason i have found myself introduced to these models, dancers, and actresses, but it is personality, trust and respect that has allowed me to call them each my friends. If you are someone who feels shy around people here online, please know that i was once in the same boat. Keep working, and trying your best to step out of your comfort zone by interacting, and talking to the people that are your online friends. a
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